Scenic..

My idea of heaven these last few days has been to relax to some classical music
A prominent piece on constant repeat has been 'Changing clothes by James Horner' also featured in the movie - The Boy in the striped pyjamas (another great book-movie adaptation..)


This track appears to pull me in with the promise of calmness/quietness but then climaxes suddenly with a fevered high pitched note. So high, so sudden that it's enough to almost jolt a comtose person into consciousness.


I would like to think that I could equate such a piece to an orgasm...

..the initial stirrings of the violin can be likened to initial pre-coital proceedings.. You know how you feel in the beginning when you start to sense that something is waking up within you as that special spot is suddenly touched/caressed/pulled/twanged - (whatever does it for you!)


...in between you feel yourself climbing and climbing as the harp is subtly joined by the piano,the clarinet, the trumpet etc... all coming together with such force that you start to wonder if each instrument is clamouring for your attention...


....towards the end, you get to that point where you know you can't hold back, can't move forward/backwards
You feel yourself rising..
A sense of euphoria approaching..
Floating...
Still floating...
Within this sweet cloud..
Hoping that this dreamy journey will never end..
and then feel the source of your pleasure suddenly withdraw itself,


As the orchestra reaches it's magnificent climax..


At which point I wonder.....

WTF?!

But go for the repeat button again...

Somehow

Have you ever been 'somehow' & then wondered why you were 'somehow'?

The annoying thing about this is that this annoying 'somehow' can't be accurately diagnosed until the period of 'somehowness' has passed.

It is after this that you laugh, cry, groan, curse, spit, eat, shit at how you had allowed yourself to feel 'somehow'


I guess somehowness can be examplified by feelings of:

-Restlessness/calmness

- Being erratic yet meticulous

- Being happy yet sad

- Starving yet bingeing

- Not giving a f**k but yet worrying yourself to a state of fervour.

And whatever form of somehowness that your somehow has decided to somehow.


I shall try and see this one through...

Have you had a period of 'somehowness' recently?

Another morning...

Alarm..

Stretch, stare at ceiling, wonder if I can squeeze a couple more hours of slee...BAM BAM BAM*

Huh??!!!

*BAM BAM BAM BAM*

Phone starts ringing simulataneously.

U are kidding me.

I get up..go to the door then hear my name

"Chibuchi, open up, I can see you already we need to talk."

"Are you serious? at this time??"

"U haven't been picking up my calls so what do you expect me to do.."

""

A or B, when A is obvious.

Back at work, after recovering from a bad bout of lawd knows.

Hate calling in sick for real, think it makes one appear like some kind of weakling.

Had more than enough time to gather my thoughts.

Verdict is...

Pretty obvious isn't it?

I am taking him back.

But not so easily...

Gonna need some time..a lot of time.